[AnatraAmore]

So Pref night rolls around... I'm a nervous wreck alllll day. I finally arrive (a little early) to get my invites. And to my surprise, I received invitations to all three groups!!!! Yay!!!! It took me a few minutes to think about it, but I knew deep down that I did not fit in well with Tender Heart. But, having been through recruitment, I thought about something that most PNM's may only think of briefly: which group do I realistically see myself getting a bid from? Am I hoping for something that I know deep down isn't going to happen? After talking to Carrie for like 15 minutes about it, I decided not to worry about it and just go with my heart. So, I circled Wish Bear and True Heart and hoped that I was making the right decision.


My first Pref party of the night was Wish Bear. Their Preference ceremony was AMAZING! Even though it was my first Pref, I knew it was something special. My rusher was a sister I'd met all three nights and was from my hometown. The President came by and talked to me for a few minutes and I realized how nice it was to be remembered and not just my name, but actual things they had picked up about me and remembered (ex: I talked about how I had a psych test on the morning of Pref and we chatted about how I did on it - it was nice to have people who remembered the little things like that) When we were done chatting, they had their ceremony and it was beautiful, down to the fountain, pearl, and making a wish. (Which of course at that moment was that I was going to be a Wish Bear...) After leaving that Pref, I thought that there was absolutely no way that anyone could top that.

As a result, my second Pref was something of a let down. True Heart showed a sisterhood slide show which many of the sisters "awww'ed" and "oooo'ed" but I didn't get it. My Pref'er kind of ignored me and we didn't really talk. After the ceremony, they ushered us to the door and that was it. There was no real conclusion after the ceremony and it ended really abruptly in all of our minds. It was also only about 20 minutes into the party, so then we sat around for 25 minutes waiting for the other parties to finish so we could sign our Preference cards.

When I signed my Preference Card, it was really easy in my mind:

1. Wish Bear
2. True Heart

However, as I went home I began to rethink my ranking. I liked Wish Bear's Pref, but I had really liked something about True Heart before that. Did I rank them right? Wish Bear's ceremony was awesome, but I wondered if I'd been too hasty in my decision. It was too late by then though. I had to go with what I'd signed. I just hoped it was going to work out... (and that I'd actually get a bid!)