[LOVEinZTA]

The rho chi's told us we could leave as soon as they handed us our schedules (they knew some people might get upset). I sat as Amanda called out each girls name to hand them the schedule (Gina had disappeared by this point - her grandmother had passed away and she had to leave suddenly leaving Amanda as our only Rho Chi). She finally got to me and pulled a handful of teabags out of her pocket, put those in one of my hands, and placed my schedule in the other. I turned around and took a few steps away, a deep breath, and opened it.

Cappuccino
Mocha

I ran back to my dorm before anyone else could get there, sat on my bed, and cried. It wasn't that I didn't like the choices I had left, but I had no clue what had gone wrong with Espresso. Was it what I wore? Did I say something? Or had they finally realized that I wasn't a walking model of perfection? After about 10 minutes, I pulled myself together and stepped outside. The emotional scene was what it had been the day before, only multiplied by about 50.

I walked down the hall and found Lisa in Kate's room. Kate had been invited back to both Cafe Au Lait and Ristresso for prefs - and so had Lisa. She had been dropped by Mocha and was clearly upset about it. We sat there telling her she should go to prefs and if she didn't feel at home anywhere to just drop. We finally had her set on the deal when in burst Lola in tears. She had been cut by Latte and would be going to Cappuccino and Cafe Au Lait for prefs. They were all shocked when I told them that Espresso had dropped me. As the tears started to mount again I reminded them that at least we all were going back to 2 preference parties, some people were only going to one - we were lucky in that aspect.

I pulled it together and walked back to my room to start getting ready. I saw Ashley crying to her roommate at the end of the hall. French Press and Americano had dropped her and she would be preffing at Latte and Cappuccino.

At this point I had had about as much as I could take. I went into my room around 8:00 and emerged around 9:30 in my pref dress with a cup of hot tea in hand. I calmly walked over and waited outside Cappuccino.