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Originally posted by amycat412
newbie-
any update??????
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Hey Amy
(and everybody else),
I am feeling tons better since I last posted. I have since thought about everything a lot and have done tons of diary writing in the quest for an answer. I have concluded that the U of A would just be an impossible, impossible dream. The careers that I'm considering require many years of school and very little pay for
at least the first five-ten years. Taking out many loans would not be a smart option for me, as I would put myself into a miserable stream of debt.
However, I am content about my decision, for some reason. I just don't want to hurt my parents, b/c even though we fight constantly, I love them dearly. I know that if I were to rebel and go to the U of A against their wishes, I would be the pariah of the entire extended family -- honestly. You'd have to be a part of my family (or at least come from the same background) to totally understand. What I just said is the absolute truth. The truth is, they would not come around to the idea of the U of A. They are extremely stubborn and very fixed in their beliefs. I would never hear the end of it and I just don't want to be the outcast of my family.
I guess in the back of my mind I knew, from the start, that the U of A wouldn't be a realistic option for me. I just knew, but I never admitted it to myself. I have to face the facts, though, which say that with what I want to do -- psychology or teaching psychology -- I cannot afford to separate from my family (I know, how dramatic, but extremely true). It would not be in my best interests.
Now, I can only hope for the best -- that I can attend one of those top three choices this fall. If not, then I won't know what to do. For sure, I'll be crushed and bitter (at least initially) if I have to attend my safety school. But now, I'm just trying to remain positive, as I know that's so important as March approaches.
Good news, though, in all this bleakness. I found out yesterday that I got a 4.0 this fall! I hope USC counts this semester, I really do. That would strengthen my case for admission tremendously. I will call them tomorrow and hope they say, "Yes, we would like to see your mid-year report." (The UC system, unfortunately, does not count senior year -- dammit!) I feel a tremendous sense of accomplishment b/c this year I did not work too hard for school at all -- I was wrapped up in all the college application-stuff. But I guess God was smiling down on me!
Another piece of good news...my dad came to school and happened to see my psychology/government teacher. The teacher said very good things about me and told my dad I would be brilliant in the area of psychology. I was so happy because my dad finally said he was proud of me. That meant so much to me.
Oh yeah, I'm extremely excited because soon my friends and I get to start on our community service project. We have chosen to work with impoverished children. I'm so looking forward to that -- children make my day! A simple innocent smile from them can make any bad day so much better. Aren't children the best?
Alright, my eyes are hurting and I have to catch up on my PMs/emails! Will update again soon!