I am so sorry about the passing of your friend. I hope you are doing a bit better.
As for your post, while I don't personally know you, please don't sell yourself short. You have just as much of a chance to get into a house as any other girl that goes through recruitment. And as weird as this may sound, having friends in houses does help. Yes, they are only one person during thier chapters MS process, but they can obviously vouch for you.
