Okay ladies...I have an update for you.
Phase C started early this morning, and I didn't go. I got out of bed to get ready and thought to myself "do I really want to do this?" And the answer was no. A tentative no, but still a no. I just have so many doubts about the whole process - I went into rush knowing absolutely nothing about sororities, and I've been getting so much conflicting information. It has been hard for me to figure out what sorority life is really all about, and whether or not its something I truly want to be a part of.
My Rho Chi Jen called my dorm room to see if I was running late. I told her I wasn't running late - I just wasn't coming at all. She asked if I was sure, and I said yes. Truthfully, I wasn't 100% sure, but I had reached the point of no return in my decision...my rush group was leaving the dorm right then, and I had been so torn about whether to go or not that I hadn't gotten ready. I could tell that Rho Chi Jen was a little surprised and maybe wanted to talk through things a little with me, but there was no time for that - the rush group had to leave to make it to the morning's first party on time.
Sorry to disappoint everyone. Maybe sorority life just isn't for me.
