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I know I'm a little behind in the ranting, but I just have to get it out.

Mom- I love you, but you annoy the hell out of me. Don't fight with me everytime I see you. Just because you made mistakes and married the wrong guys before dad doesn't mean I will. I am an adult and I am capable of using my best judgment. And I don't care what pills you are taking for your back, get off them. And get something for the depression I know you have.

Friend #1-Yes you have money. Yes you can pay for everthing. So don't complain when you can't put anything else on the credit card cause you've already charged too much. You and I and everyone else knows that you NEED to marry rich, you would be unhappy doing anything else, so realize it! I know you love him, but he's not going to move for your career, and you will be so unhappy. I like him too, but I you already know how you really feel about it. You are my best friend and I do love you, but can we please stop this whole telephone-2nd grade thing where I say something and it goes around the entire group and when it comes back is all twisted around and not at all what I said??

J-I love you. I love everything about you. You make me feel wonderful and loved and all the things I've ever wanted. But Yes I hate her, and yes I still think about what happened, and every time we fight I still picture the two of you in my head. I hated that you hurt me like that, and I hated that you said that when it happened you weren't sure about us at the time. I know you hated that I went back to school when I did, but it was my decision. Yes, I could have decided earlier, and we could be better off now, but it's my life, and this is what I want to do with it. I hate that you weren't sure about us when it happened, but if I even talk to a guy when I'm with my sisters at a bar, you get all "I can't trust you, and why didn't you think about how I felt?" at me. I'm in college! There are guys here, and I do want to talk to them. It doesn't mean I'm gonna shack up with them, and not every guy who talks to me wants to sleep with me. And if they still talk to me after I say I'm engaged, it doesn't mean that they are scum who wanna shack, it means that some of them actually do want to talk to me just because. No my parents don't like you right now, but I can't do a damn thing about it. I can't change the way they feel. But no matter how many times my dad says he just want's me to be happy, no matter what I do, you still think that they are never going to accept you. You are right, I haven't dated much, and I never did have the college experience my first year. And I do want it. What happened to the "I want to you date and go out there and make sure that I'm the one for you. You haven't dated as much as I have. I've seen what's out there and I'm sure, but you still need to see." Now You don't want me to talk to any guy! Maybe I do want to date. Maybe I do want to see what happened if I brought a guy home that my parents liked. Maybe I do want to see a guy who understands why I'm greek and is ok with it instead of swearing that our kids will never be. I don't want to have kids right now, I'm in college and I want to finish and not be like my parents, 40 with 2 kids in college. I want to get it right this time. Remember, that's why I went back.

To J's Mom- I know you think that I'm taking your little boy and only son away, and I'm this evil woman for doing that, but what do you want me to do?? And I'm sure that his ex never missed a family birthday of anything, but I'm human. I like you, and I consider you all my family, but don't keep comparing me to someone else. And no, I'll never be as good a cook as you, does that make you feel better?

The Group- Stop talking about each other. Don't think that you know more about my relationship than I do. If you are mad at someone, TELL THEM. If you want to say something to me, tell me rather than telling 3 other people and wait for it to get all f-ed up when I finally hear it.

Dave-He's my fiance. I'm gonna stay with him on weekends no matter what you think. Just because you were there first doesn't make it your apt. He pays the rent too.

Dad-I love you. I want you to be proud of everthing I do. Thank you for telling me I'm wonderful no matter what. And I will be happy, it might just take a little time.

Sorry so long, but Ohhhhh.. that feels so much better.