This is awesome, I have had a crappy day and need an outlet to rant! Sorry, this post will probably be my meanest ever on GC. I am just frustrated as hell right now.
*Most names mentioned have been changed*
Mom and Dad - I hate how you guys want me to go to a "top" school and feel shitty there. I hate how you have all these f-ing expectations for me. i hate how I've been brought up in this high-pressured environment. I hate how you don't care if your daughter ends up sad or happy at her future college. You only care about academic rep. HOW SAD. Really. Dammit. I hella wanna go to this college now, and you guys think it's hilarious or something. I hate that you don't want me to be happy in my future. You think being a doctor's great? OK, so how about if your daughter hates med school or hates accounting/business, etc. so much that she goes home every day tired and angry? I hate how comparisons between me and my big sis never, ever end. Give it up; I will never be my sister, and to be honest, I'm GLAD! I don't wish to be my sister. I would rather be exciting than practical. So I'm a rebel. I'm sorry that I'm not the daughter that you wish I was. But please be accepting of that and love me just the same. I always feel that you all love my sister much more than me. And that hurts. Big time. And Dad, would you please help Mom around the house so youi all don't end up always fighting? I'm so sick of hearing the common fights you guys have. I need something stable in my life right now. I don't have it. I wanted that "something-stable" to be you guys. But, nope. Guess I have to look elsewhere.
My (biological) sister - I love you very much, but sometimes you really disappoint me. You aren't always there for me when I need you. I need some support right now in this stage of my life, but I feel that I can't really count on you all the time. I also am sad that our parents judge my worth, so many times, based on how YOU were at my age. Can you ever shed your angel wings? I know you haven't always been an angel, but it seems like it. Makes me look like a devil compared to you.
Tina - I can't believe that whenever I call you to ask for advice lately, you've been nothing but an ass about it. Thanks; I care a lot for you and always listen to you, but when I desperately need an ear you are too tired? Thanks dude. Thanks a lot.
My high school - you know, you better do something about this horrible environment that you have. It's nothing except "Ohmigod! I
only got a 1490! Ohmigod! How am I gonna get into Harvard now? I'm so stupid! Yeah, I have a 4.8 GPA but so what? I need a 1600!"
WTF. This HS is nothing but a cutthroat, you-survive-or-else environment. Do you give a rat's ass if someone struggles or gets
less than that "horrible" 1490?!
Ughhhhhhhhhhh.
Angela - please stop bragging about all your achievements to everyone. We know you got into Stanford, we know your great GPA, and your perfect SATs. That's great...but we're not all as smart as you... don't try to pull people down when they're already stressed out.
My ex boyfriend - I'm sorry that we broke up. I still love you, as stupid as that sounds. I miss you. But I can't be with you right now, as it wouldn't help you either to be with me, when I myself am so messed up right now. You will always be my first love. Thank you for teaching me how to love, for being there for me even when I wasn't always there for you, and for just being you. You are too great for words. (yes, yes, cheesy....so, I haven't told him yet.)
Caitlin (this is her real name) - thanks for being such a wonderful best friend. You make Kappa Alpha Theta proud!!! Thank you for being there even when I start bitching, thank you for teaching me that it's OK to be sad sometimes, thank you for being the bestest friend that anyone could be. I wish that you were my older sister!
Patrick - get off your high horse. So you're now too good for your "less-smart" friends? Thanks, buddy. Hope you go to where you wanna go for college, but realize that you seriously ain't all that.