We talked. But not on the phone. I started telling him when he called me and as I was, he said he wanted to come over. I told him no, but he showed up anyway. I didn't let him in, so we sat outside on the steps. It was cold outside so he put his jacket around me, I wanted so much to take it off, but I was really cold. I told him that I didn't really know how to say this but I let him know that I didn't think it was a good idea that we see each other again. He asked me why. I told him you said it yourself in the letter you wrote me that if I wanted to break off our friendship that you would be o.k. with it. He didn't say anything. He just took a deep breath with a very disappointed look on his face. I gave the rose back to him too. He said what am I going to do with this? I told him I didn't want to keep anything he gave me. This was so hard telling him this, because I really felt like I was throwing away a friend. He didn't seem like a stalker. I just think he's lonely. He has hobbies, but he's not involved in any school activities. He wants to be greek but they don't want him. He asked me what was it about him that I'm not physically attracted to. I told him that it's not important. He shook his head in disbelief, smiled and said o.k. I won't bother you again. For the 1st time he didn't try hugging me, he shook my hand. I gave him his jacket back and then he left. That was the hardest thing I have ever had to do.
The only thing I worry about now is we both go to this popular coffee shop, that pretty much everybody knows about. There's only one, it's not a coffee chain, so it's not like I can go to another one. It's a small hole in the wall owned by one person. I've been going there for a long time now, but I may not go anymore. He might be there. He's been there just about everytime I would go, and everytime I've gone in there he would make it a point to sit with me. I never had a problem with it until now. I wanted to go today, but I thought he might be there. This really sucks. I love that place so much. Well anyway, I felt so bad for breaking our friendship off that I cried myself to sleep. I don't think he's psycho, my X is more of the psycho. I thought I would have the same problems tonight, but for the 1st time he didn't call nor did he come over. I think he got the message. As far as my X, yes he still wants to get back together, but I'm not. He only wants to get back with me whenever he wants something from me. He doesn't come around at all. I just saw him in passing and we started talking and he mentioned it. He does this all the time, only when he wants something. He's a drunk.
Thank you so much for all of your help on this guys. This site is the best, and so are you guys. You guys have been so supportive.
If anything else happens I'll tell you guys.