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Originally Posted by Kamryn
My confessions…
I think I may be single for the rest of my life… Seriously, I have never seen a successful relationship/marriage in my lifetime. I’ve lost faith in the idea of having a family with a father in the house. The only thing that can restore that faith is my faith that God can make this happen in my life regardless of what I’ve seen. That would be a MIRACLE! Sometimes it’s hard for me to walk by faith and not by sight. Needless to say, all of the men in my life (family and friends) have cheated to the point that it has ruined their marriages/relationships. So it’s hard for me to believe that I would be any different. I also think that I wouldn’t know how to be a wife with a husband because I’m too independent, like the women in my life. As much as I want to have a family, I sometimes feel that it would be best that I save someone from having to deal with my own insecurities based on my loved ones experiences. When you’ve never seen a successful relationship your ENTIRE life, have cousins and siblings popping up out of nowhere, and witnessed cheating and cheaters being caught from the time you were young enough to remember; I guess it can have an effect on you.
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^^^I have had similar situations. Very few people in my families have successful relationships or marriages. As a man, I come from a LONG line of cheating men, but I recognize the generational curse. I seriously pray on a regular basis to allow me to break this cycle. In order to keep from following in the same path, I have chosen to be single (for right now) because I haven't met the right woman yet. Don't downplay your independence because some men find independence sexy. I am one who does. It is okay to be independent, but the factor is being able to negotiate!