My confessions/apologies....
Anthony - I am sorry i fu*ked up and told a few people about you and her messing around. I didnt know everyone would find out about it. I forgot how some of our brothers LOVE to run with that kinda $hit. I was jealous. Simple as that. I was in a bad place in my life. I have apologized to you, and you have accepted, but its not the same. I hope I havent lost you as a buddy. You were a good friend, we had too many good times getting drunk at Howl together. If you dont wanna be like old times I understand. I am dissapointed, but I understand. I did screw up.
Matt - god damn it. I wish the circumstances had been different. I am sorry I came off that way. You were a great friend and wanted nothing more than to be my friend. I thought you wanted Dawn. I treated you like shit. I was 17 and a DUMB ASS. I have always felt bad for it. 10 years later it still bugs me. I learned from it tho. And I now respect people for who they are.
Clarissa - What can I say. I was an idiot who treated you like a dog. We had great times, and I wanst man enough to admitt that I wasnt as interested in you as you were me. It freaked me out. Thats why I acted the way I did. Someday, I hope you can forgive me. I still havent forgiven myself, and its been 6 years.
slams:
Trae - get the fu*k over yourself. You can create whatever image you want and sell it to which ever new members you care to, but dont try and pawn it off on me. 1, I knew you when. 2. I brought your ass into the chapter - have some respect. 3. Dont insult me by pretending to be it. you aint never gonna be it. We can disagree on the issues, but you need to respect MY right to not see things your way, as I respect you right to disagree with me. Look it up online, its called being an adult. Give up the game. I was playing it when you were at 8th grade Prom. I'm gonna win, so play like Enron and just quit. Also, QUIT controlling everyone else around you. Frankly, its pathetic. Specially when we all diagnosed your paranoia about a year ago. The whole chapter knows your mom is whack in the head controll freak and your dads a full on pussy, ala her whipt little bitch. She treated your older sis like shit, and she treated you like shit. yep, it DOES flow downhill. So quit exercising the only controll you feel you can by controlling those lower on the food chain, the NM's. Its so very sad, because the rest of us have it figured out and are all looking at you like the injured deer that just got hit by a car; SO SAD and we hope it dissapears into the woods to save us the pain of having to watch it suffer.
Denise F. - get your head outta your ass. I am about to skate. You aint gonna find no one else who'll put up with your $hit. Youre gonna end up in10 years on a greek posting board bitching about how you screwed up and lost me forever. I am giving you till my birthday to step up. tic toc tic
kudos:
To Kenneth - youre the big brother I never had. you were there for me when my family wasnt. We've been brothers for YEARS now and youre one of the most important people in my life. I dunno what I'd have done if you werent there to bail my ass out time and time again.
Trico - Youre a probably my best friend. thanks for letting me move in for the month till my new apt is ready. Always there with a smile, beer and an eager ear to hear all my BS. probably the best drinkin buddy a guy could ever have. you understand me like no one does. Thanks.