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Originally Posted by liltrixx

well i just got the dreaded phone call and I have been released from recruitment...

I know it has been awhile since UCF's bid day, but I figure it isn't too late to give you some advice.
First of all, I am SO sorry that things didn't go as you planned. I know how painful it is to get your hopes up and have them torn down. Nothing is worse than the feeling of rejection, but don't let this situation negatively impact your self esteem.
On one hand, it may have been meant to be. I know people at UCF that aren't Greek and still manage to have a lot of fun. They have all joined co-ed fraternities for their majors and they go out with them all the time to party. They have connections outside of the world of sororities.
However, I know that being Greek has an incredible thing that I think everyone should get to experiene if given the chance. Ranking can be REALLY hard. It doesn't necessarily mean that no one wanted you--you may have just not matched up. Also, about suicide...I would've kept Scarlett around. It is hard to tell what a chapter is like just from the recruitment process, which is very quick and planned out. Once you're inside, you see things from a whole new view and it could turn out to be amazing. Since you weren't given a bid, you can go through spring recruitment. See if any houses you turned down originally or houses that you connected with do spring rush--maybe Scarlett IS worth another shot.
No matter what, know that college is an amazing experience and whether greek or not, there are so many ways to get involved. You are a very strong person and I'm impressed that you tried and stuck it out til the very end. <3