i am so glad that this thread was brought back into the fold. when i first read some of the posts i felt so good. i am in the midst of completing some incomplete courses and have been a bit anxious about doing so. but as it stands now i have finished 1 paper and have 3 or for more to go.
i want to share something with my sisterfriends that i know will be inspiring to some of you. last year at this time, i had a mental breakdown. this was after i had a breakthrough of some things that happened to me as a child. i spent approx. a week in a wonderful place that focused on post traumatic stress disorder. i did leave against medical orders but i felt that it was time for me to go plus i didn't want to spend christmas without my family. i tell you that was the most difficult week of my life. aside from the work that i had to do with my therapists i had to come to some tough realizations abut my family. to this day i still get sad when i think of those moments but i am reminded how God blessed me with a wonderful man who supported me unconditionally and a positive environment for me to begin to heal.
since that time i have been in therapy with a wonderful african american female psychotherapist who is compassionate, professional and truly cares for my health and well being. she was truly God sent. you see we attend the same church and i didn't know it until one day prior to me joining the church, i came to a service and i noticed her in the choir. after the service she told me that she spotted me as soon as i walked in. what's even more awesome is that prior to this day i hadn't seen her in 4 years when she treated me briefly as one of my university's psychiatrists. she had only been at my school for a semester but it was the best therapy i had received. anyway, before i left the service i told her that i will come and see her and she said that she knows i would come in my own time. and i did :-). she was the one that recommended the hospital to me and helped my husband emotionally get through such a rough time.
within a matter of 6 months after my hospitalization, i showed signs of improvement. i was told that this was remarkable especially for what i had gone through. as many of you know, i got married in may. i did so without ANY STRESS what so ever. now i am at the point where i can confront one of the people that was at the crux of 24 years of pain. i know that this is nothing but God. it was he that brought me to this point. it was his love that carried me through.
to any of you who read this know of anyone that may have gone thru what i have or are in the midst of their own struggle know that no matter what God is there with you. it may be difficult to comprehend when you are in so much pain but it was he who created us--developed our minds so that we could deal with traumatic experiences in such a way that it can protect us and allow us to go on day to day. i am really beginning to understand that. trust me folks, i have had my doubts and i still do but i am at a point where i can really FIGHT with all of my strength to keep SATAN from putting those negative thoughts in my mind. so remember that no matter how strong those negative thoughts are, deep down the positivity that has helped you to succeed is still there. tap into that small mustard seed of faith and it will lead you back to your authentic self.
with sisterly love,
THEE darling1