1) My parents' deaths. This led to a hefty bout of depression. I'm a living testimony, now. If I can accomplish the things that I've done, with that type of stress, I know I can do anything, and so can everyone else!! My blessing, I can help other people with their grief and depression, and let them know, it's nothing to be ashamed of. Each time, I get a little stronger.
2) Not being able to pledge undergrad due to no chapter being on campus. BITTER is the only word to explain what I felt. But if I hadn't pledged when I did, I would've never met some of my LS's. We needed each other. My blessing? My #15.
3) My initial break-up with my current beau. I was a WRECK!! I seriously wanted to die. I couldn't figure it out, and I felt like God was playing a cruel trick on me. I felt like, ok, you took my parents, you took my good friend, now you take my man, too? Can I get some JOY??? I tip my hat, for real, to people who can survive a divorce, because a sista was BROKE DOWN over a break up of a TWO year relationship. TWO. BROKE DOWN! My blessing? I found me, again w/ the help of my #15. I had lost me. But I got me back, now! I'm telling you, I have grown more over the past two years than I could ever realize. My blessing: My faith in God is renewed, but also a little different. I learned how to talk to Him. I realized, I could just be myself, and He would still listen. Another blessing: I realized that Ideal08 is not always right, all the time. I realized that I had to take responsibility for things going wrong. And that is some hard mess to do, but you have to do it. I realized that I, too, have to compromise. I realized that I was a little selfish. All in all, I learned some things about me that I didn't like, and that I had to change. I'm still working on it.
I also realized that my dude needed space to grow, as well, and you can't grow together. It's just like these one type of plants
, the male and female can't grow next to each other, b/c one will over pollenate the other, and both will die. The true blessing? I GOT MY MAN BACK!!!
