[lil_sunshine]

"I APOLOGIZE"

I apologize black woman for all the seen and unseen lies,
For the heartache and pain that brought tears in your eyes.

I apologize black woman for not being true from the start,
for running away from you, leaving a hole in your heart.

For ignoring your feelings and pushing them aside,
because I was too arrogant and pumped up with pride.

I apologize for making promises that I couldn't keep,
for building a foundation based on treachery and deceit.

Being selfish and inconsiderate, I did what I wanted to do,
making costly decisions without thinking of you.

I apologize for not holding you through restless nights and stormy days,
for my immature thoughts and my foolish ways.

Instead of carrying your love with me, I just threw it on the shelf,
after we made love I turned away, only thinking of myself.

You cried your heart for me, while I was out running wild and loose,
I destroyed the essence of your love with physical, mental, and emotional abuse.

I gave you hell black woman by giving up when times got rough,
I didn't slap you, I pushed you, I neglected you-- even that's bad enough!

Now I see why you build a wall around you, because it is me you despise,
but that's the price that I have to pay for all the times I wore a disguise.


I pray to GOD that one day you will realize,
That I LOVE YOU BLACK WOMAN, AND I APOLOGIZE.