Ahh...this is such a weird topic for me, considering the idea of trying to move on is on my mind a lot recently.
Last Christmas Eve my boyfriend of 2 years emails me and tells me he had been dating a girl who lives in his dorm for the last 5 months and how he really wants to be with her because she is one in a million. The same girl he swore all along was just a friend, and would get angry with me when I would ask him about why she would call him at my house. I was completely devastated and still am....it took me almost 4 months before I could even tell anyone without bursting into tears. Nothing anyone including myself can do or say that will prevent me from not taking this completely personal. What he did/said to me makes my self esteem disappear and sometimes makes me feel completely worthless, unattractive, undesireable, and unwanted. Im now scared to date...scared to give my heart to anyone. I feel crippled by this breakup - almost a year later...its not so much that I want him back, I guess the way the breakup occured...was very traumatizing. There has only been one other occurance like this...in 96...and almost 6 years later I still miss him. I dont really have a question...just maybe saying how its hard to move on and get on with your life...its hard to trust people again...and its hard to forget
