[gem_star17]

I didnt make it into one because I thought I was so cool, I really DON'T konw how to act around other girls, and i let others influence my decision.
See, I went into rush feeling cocky: I was a former model, I was going to do Miss USA 2006 ( my state's division) and cos I was dating a guy in the top fraternity on my campus. I was basically the biggest brat, doing everything they tell you not to do during rush. From complaining, to accidently ignoring a sister, badmouthing a certain sorority, talking about frats, etc. I was AWFUL! So awful, that I made a name for myself among the other sororites and with the VP of recritment for Panhell. But nobody did anything to stop me, unfortunately. Now, the sisters weren't saints, either, but I should have known better. But I didnt bc I was used to being catered to by my bf and the frats.
Out of 20 sororities only 2 wanted me: the 2nd most unpopular sorority and the TOP sorority. So you'd think I would have joined the Top one, right?
Well, during rush I kept hearing the rho chis talk about how catty the top sorority was, and how all the frats wanted to hang out with them ONLY bc they were "fast." so i did everything i could to get cut but they wouldnt cut me. infact, they were so sweet to me, but everyone ( other pnms-how the hell would they know, right?) insisted it was all just an act... so i finally told the top sorority i didnt want to be part of their sorority.
I really wanted to join the bottom house, bc I loved them, they were the only ones I wasnt a brat to and who i loved seeing every round. But my bf wasnt happy about that, so I ended up turining down their bid and staying independant...very stupid move! Later, I rushed in spring w/ a new positive attitude but the damage was done and even the bottom sororities didn't want me.
Luckily I have kind of a happy ending. The President of the sorority I was so awful to ( the "top" one) and I became friendly, and she wants me to join next year. or so she says. and i got to know some of the other sisters and they are sooo sweet and they want me to rush, too. and i just might, because for a sorority to forgive me like that must mean I am meant to be their sister. Besides, all those girls who said those awful things about them were probably just jealous, anyway...