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Originally posted by Bajan_Delta
My confession isn't saucy but it is something I need to get off my chest. I don't like my grandmother, AT ALL. Now I'm not saying I hate her but I just don't like her ways, I don't like talking to her, I just want to be around her. I hear other people being all warm and fuzzy about their granny and I think, is something wrong with me. Someone asked me a while back if I would cry if she passed on and I couldn't say yes. I don't know that I would, I don't think that I would.
I've have to tell her off a couple of times, not using swear words but to set her straight about some things. She tries to buy my affections but giving me gifts and I don't want to take them because I know that she will only talk about it to make her self look good, but if I don't then I'm ungrateful. So folks understand where my feeling come from, my grandmother is quite a two-faced individual who will talk about me fiercely then if confronted would bring down the heavens that she didn't say it. She has lied to other family members about me, telling them that I said things I really didn't say. I feel severe anxiety when I'm forced to be in the same room with her and exchange more than 3 words. I moved several states away to get away from her (and other relatives). If these feelings make me a bad person so be it but I can't help how i feel.
Thanks all GCers for letting get that out.
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Don't feel bad about someone that close. I feel the same as you do, but I haven't done the same as you have toward my mother-in-law.
Sometimes, we have to learn how to let go of extremely manipulative people who we are "suppose" to love... That is one of the toughest things to do, but I know there is a way to do it and deal with those kind of people.
From what I am reading, I am intepreting that she is making you a nervous wreck when you are around her... Correct me if I am wrong...