[amanda6035]

Guys - Keep your fingers crossed for me. Due to a recent turn of events...."the position" is up for grabs again (hmm, am I surprised???), and exec will be appointing it tomorrow night.

I dont wanna get my hopes up again, but I'd be lying if I said I didnt still want it. But, I'm not sweating it anymore - because I know that someone else - other than her - will have the position, and its okay.

Plus, I'm also on the committee to help set up the program for how this position is supposed to be run - so even if I dont get it this time, at least I have a direct say in how the program is run, so I feel good about that.

The only reason I'm even questioning whether or not the chapter feels that I'm capable of this position, is because one of the girls said some really really hurtful things to me back when all this drama started. She said that my reaction was living proof of why they didnt want me in that position in the first place. D*mn, I'm sorry that I'm emotional, and I'm sorry that I felt strong against her holding that job, but okay, if you really think that my reaction was worse than her holding that position, then share whatever it is that you're smoking, 'cause I could use some. I have the feeling that it was HER opinion (because she has the tendency to be on the stuck up side sometimes), not the rest of NomComs, but whatever. Thats fine. If, at this point, Exec still picks someone else, so be it. At least I know the job will get done this time around.

If I get the position, I'll come back tomorrow night and tell y'all what it is - even though there's probably more than enough clues for y'all to figure it out by now. Wish me luck!