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I think that you should live in the house next year - there is a bond formed by living in-house that's like no other. It will give you an opportunity to really get to know your other sisters.

That said - maybe it's time to take charge of your sorority destiny, so to speak. You've already made the first step, and that's going forward with initiation.

Next, take some initiative and start inviting different sisters to go out to various events. Get a group together for the pep rally, to go to the coffeehouse, to a movie, whatever. Start being your own social coordinator and before you know it, folks will invite you out more and more. Stop spending so much time at home - as the commercial says 'get out there'! The first time you call someone up it will be difficult, but it does get easier. Remember that these women wanted you around, and although they haven't shown it too well, I'm sure they still do want you around. Show them that you want to be there. Find another campus organization that has a lot of Greeks in the membership and join that group and get to know other students on campus.

Talk to your big sister - tell her how you feel. Tell you that you miss seeing her and set up a 'date' once or twice a month, just the two of you and hang out. Do the same thing with the other sisters in your 'family tree' and/or your pledge sisters.

Lastly, it sounds like you are still overwhelmed with school, etc. - maybe talking to a counselor in Student Health would help? After all, they are experts on this kind of thing and there are other students on campus that (I'm sure) are feeling the same way.

Congratulations on your upcoming initiation - I hope it is more wonderful than you can imagine!