[JennRN]

Hey sweetie. You need to go see someone-a counselor or a psychiatrist. Someone who is good with post traumatic stress disorder. Just definately get into see someone.

I lost a patient who was a year younger than I was and I had gotten really attached to her-and it was more than I could deal with. I can't to this day think about the whole case without getting teary. It was such an emotionally difficult case-this girl was beautiful and smart, with her whole life ahead of her. I was 8 months out of nursing school, and I had never dealt with something so hard. I'm sorry to say that I didn't deal with it well-I started drinking more, until one night I had a breakdown-I was hysterical, sobbing and yelling, and throwing things. My husband and my mom kept telling me to go see someone about it, but I never did. Eventually, I worked through it, but it took me a year before I was fully healed. Looking back now, I should have definately gone and talked to someone.

Eventually, you'll be ok. It takes time-alot of time. Big hugs to you.