Not once, but twice, we had fraternity houses burn down at our campus, and 8 people died as a result. There is nothing like it being the night before Homecoming weekend and you hear that XYZ's house is burning to the ground. It was the most horrendous thing I've ever seen and dealt with during college. Instead of building floats and celebrating, we had candlelight vigils and made food for the surviving brothers. To this day, I still cry when I drive past that plot of land, which has nothing built on it.
If you're feeling a bit mixed up with all of this SH80, I highly recommend talking to a campus counselor. That's why they are there, and they can be of great help. If they can't provide you with the help you need, they will refer you to someone who can.
Chin up
((hugs))