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About the wole wedding planning/event planning thing, after talking to people on here about it and doing more research, I realized that it wasn't for me. Could I do it and do it well? Yes, but it wasn't something I'd feel passionate about.
One night, I was walking along when I had that epiphanic moment that everyone talks about. "Jestor, you great blooming ruddy idiot! Isn't it obvious? You want to be a a coach!" my mind said.
Well, okay, it wasn't that sudden. It was more like, I started thinking about happiness and why I still seemed to have a sense of restlessness and uncertainty. Then I remembered that the times I've been happiest in my life have been when I've been coaching, both in practice and particularly during games.
Like I said, I feel like a moron for not figuring it out sooner, but that's what happened and so there you go.
And yes, there was a period where I had doubts about Sigma Chi, but I'd gotten over them and was going to initiate, because I liked the guys in the chapter and was really getting comfortable like before and all, but then I had the revelation I described above and I knew I wasn't going to stay. Now, had there been a chapter at the school I'm transferring to, then I would have initiated and gone through the process that the other chapter required. At the time I started this thread, I still hadn't realized what I know now.
Do I have an effeminate personality? I'm certainly not going to deny that one. I prefer to think of it more in terms of a poetic/lyric light, but considering I'm male, effeminate is an apt enough descriptor.
Am I gay or bisexual? No. While I can appreciate good looks in both men and women, the lone sphere of my sexual attraction and desire is with women.
Moving right along, I'm well aware that Greek life is forever. I know that. While I might seem a dilletante in many respects, there are other areas where I remain firmly committed. This will be one of them.
I know without any question that the career path I'm heading towards is where I belong, that the school I'm going to next is where I belong, and that my Greek home will be found there.
Doubt as you will, as it is only logical for a lot of you to do at this point in time. But I will prove your doubts in error and I look forward to doing so.
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