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Thank you sugar and spice for understanding my dilemma. For clarification to everyone else, I'm not looking down my nose at anyone, nor am I looking to be in a "better" house- I am just trying to figure out if being in a sorority that doesn't get a whole lot of respect from anyone on campus- neither the greeks nor nongreeks (my boyfriend of 2 yeras, a nongreek, has been making fun of me for joining a sorority at all) , is worht my money, which I must work (hard) to earn, in dues. Yes, I knew about dues before I rushed- maybe I just expected more. More parties, more time wiht my sisters. More people to meet. Probably, Greek life simply isn't for me. Also, to say that this is friendship vs. repuation and that I am shallow and care about what people think is inaccurate beucase I can't say I'm friends wiht anyone yet- the girls I knew better have already quit and I haven't had much interaction wiht the older members. If I knew the girls better and they felt like my sisters I would never have thought about depledging. I just feel like right now, I am payng money to have people from both sides look down on me and that I'm getting nothing in return.

I just read AxiDTrish's post and now am thinking maybe I just need to give it some time...it's been only a couple weeks, and I guess wiht more time I'll really get to know the girls....it WOULD be awesome to really be part of a sorority...the birthdays, the weddings that come after...