[Wonderful1908]

Originally posted by LibraStar
To: N.S.

Well, you called me when I was on my business trip and asked me to come home. You sounded like you weren't playing so I did.

We've been friends for 19 years...19 years is a long time, but today, I'm sad to say, I need to put some serious distance to our friendship. No one knows better than I the loniless involved with being a single parent, for when you guys were out having a good time living your lives as moms and girlfriends, I sat home, often babysitting for you when you were out with the girls at the club. Just me, my baby and your kids too. Never wanted pass judgement on what you were doing, but awfully content on just being mom and auntie. I told you about yourself, as a friend should when I just couldn't stand to see you do wrong, but still, hey, we were friends. I've asked you time and time again to watch who you brought around your dayum kids. Not everyone is fit to meet your kids - not everyone is fit to be in your house...your kid's house. You just thought I was nagging. You thought that I thought everyone's lives should end because we brought kids in the world. Not true, but there should be a balance, girl. You knew my views on all that shackin you were doing, and no, I didn't approve, but heck, I'm not your mama and I sure am not the Lord, so you do you and I'll do me. Yes, I'm overprotective of my child. It's a crazy world out there. Yes, I'm leary of people wanting to get in too good with me and my son. Yes I go out from time to time, but you better believe I don't spend more time shakin my arse at the club than I do at home with my child. So why do we find ourselves at a crossroads today N? Because 2 years ago, when I saw my nephew put into the ground I SWORE to myself I would never see another baby laid to rest and I find myself cringing because one week from today, I have to watch you put your baby in the ground because that man you let in your house did something to that child and killed him while you were out taking care of some legitimate business. I TOLD YOU to keep these dudes away from your kids, not that I would have ever imagined that anything this bad would have happened, it just didn't look good. My nephew was a sick baby, he needed to go and be with the Lord so he didn't have to suffer anymore...yours didn't have to die. For you to say you aren't mad at him because this could have been an accident - that this could have happened anyway??? BULL. If you aren't mad and ready to fight, hell (excuse the language) I am. I'm crying and my heart is broken because of this. I do not, I repeat DO NOT want to see another child go into the ground prematurely. This was not directly your fault, I understand that, but this could have been prevented. Look at the fallout. Your other child person is now stuck in the system. Sometimes YOU. JUST. DONT. THINK. I'm sick, I'm tired and I wish I would have never gotten on that plane to come back home. I'm still gonna love you..just from afar.

Sorry everyone...I had to vent.

I'm sorry to hear this. I know how frustrating it can be to have a good friend who is not putting her kids first. Not to the point of death though. I am sad to read this.