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bats (since I had one in my house many years ago)
bridges (driving over them)
tornados .. this one is weird. I'm not as afraid of them as I used to be. I used to have recurrent tornado dreams that were absolutely terrifying. I used to have night terrors too about monsters that made me afraid of the basement and windows in my parents' house. In my own house now, those fears have gone away.
dying alone on a Friday night.. this one too is very strange and it started when I was really really sick with Crohn's but they didn't know what I was sick from yet. I was dizzy and weak all the time and was afraid I'd pass out and die while home alone on Friday night and nobody would know anything was wrong until I didn't show up to work on Monday. Cognitively, this makes no sense to me, because who cares what happens with my body after I'm dead? Emotionally though, this seems like a terrible thought. Which leads me to my last one...
Going to my mom's house and finding her dead. Twice in the last few months I've gotten phone calls from friends/family of my mom's saying that they haven't been able to reach her and I have had to try to track her down. Since she's homebound, she should always be there to answer the phone so people freak out if she doesn't answer right away. Anyway, that's probably my most rational fear because it's understandable to worry about a sick parent that way.
Dee
ETA: Often, like a few times a week, as I'm falling asleep, I have this dream like vision that I'm driving and the car in front of me stops really fast. I can barely stop in time and my eyes pop open instead of finding out whether I crash or not. It's always just as I'm drifting off to sleep and it wakes me up with a start so I have a hard time falling back to sleep again because I'm so alert then.
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