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Originally posted by AlphaGamDiva
eep.
the problem is this: i just moved back home 2 wks ago. i got suckered into being back in the house b/c my grandparents offered to help pay for me to be in school full-time (as opposed to my part-time now) only if i moved back home. they are giving me $500 a month for school, as long as the remainder of it doesn't go to rent. there lies the problem. the boy has offered for me to just move in with him b/c i'm there all the time anyway, but that would just create more problems and i'm afraid they wouldn't pay for school. i pay ALL my other bills myself, but i can't afford school. the only money they give me is my tuition, and if they cut that off, i'm screwed. which is why i'm TRYING to not be like "fkuc off, bitches" about this b/c i'm afraid of the retaliation.
everyone is so right about my mom not playing fair with the whole journal catastrophy, and i've already said what everyone has said about it. but she comes back with this whole, "you're my child, i don't care how old you get, you're my child.......you don't respect our beliefs.......you don't care you stress us out....you don't think about us......selfish.......we don't hate you, we're worried that you'll end up pregnant or dead" blah blah. and i can understand what they are saying, and i DO respect their beliefs, i care that they are stressed out. but they don't care about my opinions (hello, ex b/f) or that i have a God given right to make personal choices. i'm supposed to be perfect....do what they say, when and how they say it. and that's impossible.
i have no regrets about anything that's happened, and i told my mom that hoping she would at least see that i made a decision on my own, am living with it, and am ok with it, but who knows. the funny thing is, she was like, "well, is he the only one?" (talking about the current) and i couldn't even stop myself from making the "oh, mom" face....she just walked away.
LAWD!
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Okay but here's the thing. SHE'S RIGHT. You *are* living under her roof, and you *do* have to go by their rules while you're there.
There are lots of families who can deal with changing the rules as the kid gets older.... or charging for rent, and letting the kid have her own life. But I think most families end up like yours (and mine
I speak from experience) where the parents are still coming from a "This is *our* house, you will go by *our* rules" and the frustrated kid is trying to fight it.
The bad part is, though, you don't have a leg to stand on -- you're 23, you're living at home, and your parents clearly aren't ready to treat you like an adult. Does this make it OK for them to disrespect your privacy, etc? Of course not. But it's a pretty typical problem.
I say, unless you're graduating *this* semester, move out. Look into loans, scholarships, etc -- it'll take you longer, but it'll be better for (a) you, as you exert your independence and (b) your relationship with them.