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Oh, hon {{{{HUGS}}}}
First of all, I just need to say that I understand what you mean about lying and how it sometimes comes out so easily but in reality, it feels terrible and there are really no answers as to why you lied in the first place. I can empathize with trying not to hurt someone by doing something you think will shield them, I believe we've all done that. I did that with my husband - flat out lied about stupid, pointless stuff that would have been no big deal had I just told the simple truth. He's very sensitive, for a guy, and it really bothered him. Your fiance sounds similar, and with his nasty divorce that might be holding him back from wanting to trust you 100% because he's afraid of getting hurt again.
It really takes a conscious effort to think about what you're going to say rather than lie, and I swear I'm not bashing you. He has plenty of reasons to love you, and that he does. Trust needs to be built up over time. I agree that he probably wouldn't be moving full steam ahead with the house and future plans if he didn't expect to spend the rest of his life with you, but temporarily, he's really hurt. If he's anything like my husband, he needs extra love, support, affirmation and a promise from you that you'll follow through on that you will not lie about stuff. I have been in your situation before. It sucks. But you'll pull through.
Hope this helps, we're here for you.
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