[ms_gwyn]

I will first say that I am a bundle of contradictions, but I can't do anything about it and I works for me (sometimes)

that being said...I don't want kids, I really don't like them....well that is not true...I don't like the kids that aren't "mine" (my family and I love those children with all my heart and soul), because I don't think people are giving their kids "home training", which I think that you need.

I will say that there is some fear in my reasoning, because basically the day that you find out that you are pregnant, until the day you die, there will always be that "worry" (lack of a better term), I really can't imagine opening myself up like that and being that vulnerable. There is also that "fear" that they would turn out like me, I was hell on wheels during my younger years (my parents say that I wasn't that bad), but believe me, I pulled some stunts on them.....

If, (and its a very BIG if) I ever have kids, I will raise them like I was raised and discipline them like I was disciplined and l have names.

I have a timetable of the marriage and kids and as that timetable keeps shrinking, I really don't think that these two events will happen. I still hope to get married, but kids are really not an option.

My mother has accepted this fact from both of her daughters and my father; I really don't think he cares; besides he has my younger sister (she's 12).

So in conclusion, I don't want kids, but if (a HUGE IF) I do have them, ok and I will be a great mom (but not a soccer mom, A FOOTBALL MOM), I have a great example to follow.