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I think what you are feeling is very normal. If you don't mind a trip down memory lane let me share. I was THE LAST in my group to get married. (27) I went from apartment to apartment as one by one my friends tied the knot. I even lived with my best couple friends till their wedding. Through all this I went from one end of the spiritual rainbow to the other. I dated my huband on and off for 10 YEARS!!! Going out was a "damned if you do. damned if you don't" situation. I hated my major so I travel with a band I sang with. Still, there were times when I felt blessed and times when I felt like I was going NOWHERE while everyone else had already arrived. Now, I'll give you some heartfelt advice.
Keep practicing your faith. You may want to choose another "building" for a change of scene. Give yourself a little distance from the problems of your friends. Either try to change the subject or cut short your time together. The idea of the long walk is excellent. Look for all the beautiful things in nature and see them through new eyes. Reading poetry or philosophy is mind stretching. I think our political situation is just one more thing... Now, the best one- Put on some music (not the regular stuff) but the kind that reaches your soul and DANCE- Interpretive
style-like you would DIE if anyone saw you! Remember you are soon to make a change and if Psychology 101 serves me, you may find yourself grieving for what you soon will leave behind.
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