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Yeah, I'm definately sorry about posting this on here, didn't know it'd turn this way.

I'm definately reconsidering Greek Life.. again for the second time. Maybe I'm not cut out for it, moving on would be leaving Greek Life because I'm not up to looking at a third fraternity. You'll have to ask me specifically about what happened to the first one, but I was damn determined to make this one a reality.

I'm definately into this fraternity and the chapter was awesome, I just don't know. I'm confused on why one of my brothers made it through. Now here is what I've came up with, after speaking with brothers and other people outside of it.

Basically there were four associate members. Now, two are advancing to pre-i and two of us are held over, A and B are the ones going through it and C is the one who is being held over with me. Now, A is a hold over from last semester. He was held over because of grades, nothing else.

B went through the AM ceremony with me. He wasn't well versed in the actual learning portion of our AM period, but he definately hung out with some of the brothers, playing beer pong and drinking. I spent time with "B" and helped him out with the learning shit that he needed to know. More on him later.

Now, C.. the guy who is held over with me, is a guy from last semester. On his way to Greek 101, he was attacked with a knife and whatnot, so.. he was hospitalized, but now he has been 100 percent since before this semester. During this semester, he hasn't attended any chapter meetings, philanthropy events, intramural events, socials, parties, nothing.. only thing he attended was the big bro/little bro meetings and he didn't even attend the important ones.

He was HELD-OVER this semester so he could do it this semester, but even then.. they held him again over. Now he said that his classes were fucked.. and that the fraternity was like, "this semester doesn't count". None-the-less, I'm in the same group as this guy who wasn't committed at all.

I worked my ass off, was committed and everything. It suprised a lot of people today when I told them the news. I think it's fucked up to be held over with a guy who didn't do anything. He was back up to par and failed to go to anything whereas I went to everything and hung out.

Now, if I wasn't known so much to the brothers.. why didn't anyone tell my big bro or me? How can I hang out with the bros if all they want to do.. is go and hang out.. playing beer pong and looking for easy chicks? I went to the house as much as I could, but seriously.. that was the only thing that was happening. Maybe if I drunk and played more, I might've gotten to know the brothers better, but I won't sacrifice my own personal ethics in order to do this.

B hung out with the brothers and played beer pong and drunk, that's all he did. B got into pre-i without really knowing much about the fraternity. A got into pre-i because he is a held-over from last semester and he has his grades up. C is being held over because.. uhm, he didn't have classes so he was then ok to not go to anything. I am being held over because the brothers didn't know me. So, I should've done what B did and I'd make a great impression, or I can be who I am and say 'fuck no, I'm not giving up who I am to join something.'

They might be a "tight-knit group" but I will never sacrifice my personal ethics to get to know the brothers through an avenue that I do not partake in.

Jeff *edited for grammer*