I Got To Vent...sorry :(
 

today has been the worse day i swear to god...it was a good day up until about 3 this afternoon when my friend and i were comming home from school...she took the expressway, which was odd b/c usually we take the back roads home...anyways we are driving and i start thinking of that movie final destination 2, and how it would be freaky if there was an accident and then i got this bad feeling and then gina (my friend) slams on the breaks and almost hits the car in front of us and traffic starts really slow and that when i notice stuff in the road at first i thought a tire blew and then i saw chunks of a car...i see a guy walking around and i figure it was his car so i felt ok since the guy was walking around and then i looked agian and inside the car i saw the most horrible image and i wont go in to detail b/c it was gruesome...but i freaked out and started crying b/c my friend had died a yr b4 on the exact same road...and it took my a yr to actually drive that road agian which was last week...and now i never want to drive it agian...if only u had seen what i saw...it was absolutly horrific...

...then flash foward to tonite gina calls me up at like 9 and says hey lets go to denny's i was like uh oh k so i ask my mom to use her car and i get to her house and our friend jack is there and is like dude ur headlight is out and i'm like its not my car nothing i can really do about it, its my parents car anyways so we go to denny's and then like we come back and we chill with some people for a bit and then like we get a call its jack he says i'm at wiseway...meet me so we drive that way and i'm almost there when a county cop turns around in the road and starts followin me...he pulled me over for my headlight scaring the shit outta me i get a verbal warning...so then we get a call...jack set up the whole thing i was pissed as hell he was sitting in the cop car the whole time...anyways after that shit we decided to head home but then i forgot i had to get gas so we turned around got gas and then went on our way home i drive by a cop and all of a sudden he freakin turns around in the intersection and starts following me this time there was no reason i was going the speed limit and i had different light on so that the one wasnt out so yeah hes followin me for like 10 mins and then finally turns after someone else and then i drive by another cop and they were about to follow me to when i pulled into the first drive way i see and they go right by...needless to say i had a very bad day and night...oh yeah jack didnt set up the last two cause we called him up and he woulda been laughin if he had...but whatever i'm still pissed at him and i am still tramutized from the accident that image is burned into my brain...i really want to describe it but its just not right...anyways i need to see if i can go to bed now i got to get up early for class tommrow bah....:(


p.s. to top it all off i find out my cousin has that west nile disease and he is in the hospital and like cant use his legs...i hope everything is ok for him...i'm really worried

I'm sorry you had such an awful day yesterday :( Hopefully, today will be much better.

It is undoubtedly traumatic to see something like you saw on the highway yesterday and I think it's really important for you to tell someone close to you about what you saw. Right now, you're carrying the burden all by yourself, but if you share it with another person it will become lighter on you. Does that make sense? It's just whenever I've had something terrible happen or even heard something upsetting I try to talk with someone else so I'm not "stuck" with it all by myself.

I hope you have a good day, Lawryn! :)

thank you so much that means alot to me i talked to my sister about it a little bit but yeah i feel bad giving out the gory details so its hard to talk about it like i want to oh well...

...my day has been ok i've been at school all day woohoo, not hehe but for my family it hasnt been so great, we had a plumber working on our sewars and the water pipes burst :( then my sister and dad got into an accident in the driveway cause she was pulling in and he was pulling out and my sister was in my grandparents car...so yeah tonite my dad is gonna be one mad cookie...i think i'm staying at my grandparents house :p anyways thats it for today