Open Letter to Anyone You've Lost
 

I know sometimes there's so much you want to say to a loved one that has passed away, sometimes letting other people read it helps you out... I don't know if it'll help any of you, but I hope it helps me..


Dear "Rub" (Brandon),

I just found out about 12 hours ago that the guy you lived with found you dead. I still don't know what happened to you, or anything else, just that I miss you. Everyone I've talked to so far thinks you accidentally OD'd on pills. Sadly, I wouldn't be surprised, but I am hurt. I cry so much when I remember telling you that one day you were gonna kill yourself 'doing stupid shit like that', but you didn't listen. You always thought you were so invincable...With all the stupid stuff you did do, and always came away fine, everyone else started to think you were invincable too. I guess you weren't. I'll never forget all the days we spent together on the phone, riding in your car, going to the bowling alley, just haning out, having a good time...I'll never forget all the funny things you said and did, all the times I thought you were going to go into 'fight mode'....I'll never forget any of that stuff, I'll never forget you. It's only been 12 hours since I found out you were gone, and it feels like it's been a lifetime...I miss you so much. It was wierd, I was just looking at a picture of you yesterday thinking "Man, I miss you Brandon, I need to get ahold of you..All this moving around and we haven't gotten ahold of each other...I wonder what you've been up to. I miss you." I didn't get to tell you that. I guess I'll get to miss you forever.


RIP, honey, I miss you and I'll always love you like a brother.
Brandon "Rub" Roberts, June 15, 2003

oh wow
 

my heart aches for you.

Re: oh wow
 

Thank you. :(

:( Sorry to hear about your loss, hon

Been there, still not over it...
 

A close friend of mine committed suicide on his high school graduation night 3 years ago. He had attempted several times before, but his family and most people who knew him considered it a phase and 'he'll get over it'. When he finally succeeded, it was due to 72 benadryl and a vinegar chaser. I wish that I could have done more, but I couldn't. I feel your pain, and I am deeply sorry for your loss. I am sure there are many unanswered questions (I still have them, 3 years later) that you will never find the answers to. This is the kinda thing that never leaves you. If you want to talk to someone or even just want to vent, feel free to PM me. Be strong and know that we are all thinking about you!

No one deserves to die so young.... :(