Please pray for me
 

Dear Sorors and SF's,

I am requesting prayer from you today. On October 2nd my grandmother lost her life to cancer. On Oct. 2nd she turned 85 years old and on that day she was called home. While I am a very spiritual and grounded person, I am having a very hard time dealing with my loss. My grandmother practically raised me from the moment her eyes met mine until the day she passed. The hard thing is seeing my 10 year old son go through his emotional ups and downs. I 've tried very hard to not cry in front of him so as to be a rock for him to lean on instead of a pillow. Once he sees me crying it's all over.

I am trying not to be selfish and think of myself and my needs but it's hard not to. So many questions have gone through my mind like why our Creator coudn't have made her well instead of taking her meanwhile understanding that when it is your turn to go, it's your turn. Realizing also that there is a reason for all our Creator does and realizing that our stay here is not a permanent one it's just so DARN hard. SIGH!!!!!!

Please pray for me that through this difficult time somehow my family and I find the healing and divine guidance necessary to move on the way my grandmother would have wanted us to do.

PrettyNPearls
1908

Please accept my condolences. Dont be afraid to cry in front of your son. It will show him that Mommy is human and hurts just like he does. :(

I'm sure all of us will keep you, your son and your family in our prayers tonight. :)

You are in my prayers
 

Sometimes life seems hard to bear,
Full of sorrow, trouble and woe;
It's then I have to remember,
That it's in the valleys I grow.

If I always stayed on the mountain top,
And never experienced pain,
I would never appreciate God's love,
And would be living in vain.

I have so much to learn,
And my growth is very slow,
Sometimes I need the mountain tops,
But it's in the valleys I grow.

I do not always understand,
Why things happen as they do,
But I am very sure of one thing,
My Lord will see me through.

My little valleys are nothing,
When I picture Christ on the cross,
He went through the valley of death;
His victory was Satan's loss.

Forgive me Lord, for complaining,
When I'm feeling so very low.
Just give me a gentle reminder,
That it's in the valleys I grow.

Continue to strengthen me,Lord
And use my life each day,
To share your love with others,
And help them find their way.

Thank you for valleys, Lord
For this one thing I know,
The mountain tops are glorious,
But it's in the valleys I grow!



Have a blessed day!


REMEMBER...
The shortest distance between a problem and a solution is the distance between your knees and the floor. The one who kneels to the Lord can stand up to anything.

:)

Soror, may God grant you peace and comfort during your time of suffering. May His sweet Holy Spirit comfort you during those times when you feel it to be impossible to be comforted.

Believe me, I have been THROUGH it. I can't say it will ever get any easier, but you will be ok, I promise you that. And like nikki1920 said, it's ok to cry in front of your son. My father BROKE DOWN on me a few times after my mother had passed. Sometimes it's the child who helps the parent, not always the other way around. After my father passed, I (to this day) wish my sister had shown some more emotion. It made me feel as though it wasn't ok for me to show any, either. It's ok, soror, it is ok, and everything is going to be ok. If there is one thing we hate to face as humans, it's that death is a part of life. But what we forget about is why we are living. Don't be so concerned with earthly life. She lives on, just in a different place. This was the most comforting thing to me after my parents passed. Someday, we'll be together.

After I'd gotten done being bitter, I started to think of things I hadn't thought about before. Like instead of asking God why He took them from me, I began to THANK HIM for the time that I had with them in the first place. See, everyone doesn't have that, and it's these relationships that we take for granted. You were blessed to have had your grandmother for as long as you did. Treasure the memories of the times that you had together, and thank God for them. This was not easy for me, and it took me years to get to this point. I don't want you to think I'm saying, oh thank God, and it's easy. It's not. But trust me, you will be SO MUCH STRONGER because of this. And I also know that this may fall on deaf ears, as I surely didn't want to hear any of this at first. But when you are really ready to listen, your spirit will remember and accept these words. I can only hope that I have comforted you in some way. Soror, if you EVER need to talk, I am only an email away. You see, all my pain was not in vain. I am a living testimony. Let me know if you need me.

PrettyNPearls, please know that I am also praying for you and your family during your time of mourning. It IS tough dealing with the loss of a close family member. My heart goes out to you.

You must remember that our God is not a selfish or cruel God. He is ALL-KNOWING and ALL-SEEING. He knows us better than we know ourselves and He knows what we need. You can believe that He wouldn't put any more on us than we can bare.

Pray WITH your son. Cry WITH your son. Remember your grandmother WITH your son. He won't see it as a sign of weakness, but sensitivity and humanity.

There is a song by Hezekiah Walker and the Love, Fellowship, Crusade Choir on their Live in London CD called "It's Coming To Pass". I offer this particular song to you. It's a wonderful song and I pray that it gives you great comfort and inspiration.

:( I am sorry for your loss. I just lost my favorite Aunt last weekend so I know how you feel. The only thing to console me is the fact that she is in no more pain and is with my grandmother now. Be strong and remember that she is always with you, even in death.

Sorors and SF's,

Thank you so much for the kind words and prayers. I truly appreciate them. Soror Ideal08, they surely haven't fallen on deaf ears and I thank you for your words of inspiration. None of what was said in this forum was. I could have chosen to close my ears but I will never heal that way. I have my moments though. Some moments I'm composed and in an instant I can be balling the next. I know this is a part of my healing process.

Anyway, I will be flying back to Washington, DC this weekend for my grandmother's going home celebration. For those interested, the wake or viewing will be held at:

Ebenezer United Methodist Church (not the big mega church in Fort Washington, MD)

400 D Streets, SE
Washington, DC


Wake is Tuesday, October 8 from 10am - 11am
Funeral service starts at 11am

Again thank you so much and may God bless you all

PrettyNPearls

PrettyNPearls you and your family are in my prayers on this day and at this difficult hour for you.

I pray for our Heavenly Father to give you strength for you and your son.

As it was stated earlier, it is okay to cry. Crying heals the wounded heart. My Nana was also 85 when she made her transisition on September 1, 1998. I have learned to remember the good times we had together (I was her favorite of course ;) ) and I hold on to the things she taught me as a child and as a woman.

Though her body is gone, her Spirit will live on in you and all the memories you cherish.

Peace & Blessings to you and your family.