feeling like i made the wrong choice.
 

I just moved into my fraternity this semester, and I'm starting to feel like I made the wrong choice. I feel like I don't fit with my brothers, and sometimes I feel as if they are not really a brother to me. I got initiated last semester, and I'm really starting to wonder if I made the right choice about joining. I think I am going through some kind of depression, and its other things going on as well but I feel like the fraternity kind of adds to it a bit. I feel like I have trapped myself and if I made the wrong decision then I'm fucked.

Your campus undoubtedly has counseling services available to you. If you think you may be depressed, I urge you to contact them.

This, absolutely!

Also, buyers remorse doesn't just apply to things you buy. It's normal to second guess choices after they're made, and especially when they're decisions that don't really allow for a do-over.

But like so many other things in life, you still have choices. Often, being happy in the circumstances you find yourself in is a choice, not fate or the like. Feelings of brotherhood are rarely automatic. You can choose how you'll be a brother to others in your fraternity. The pay-off of that is the brotherhood you'll probably receive in return.

First, I agree that if you are having depression, you should contact campus counseling services.

Second, it is absolutely normal to experience fear and to question decisions you've made, especially when you're now smack dab in the center of the situation. Your very living space consists entirely of brothers, and you probably feel like there is nowhere to get away from it. I have never lived in a "house" but did live with sisters and I will tell you, it can be hard. Try cultivating or rekindling friendships outside the fraternity - the House doesn't have to be the epicenter of every aspect of your life.

Find some people or activities that help you can some perspective - literally, taking a few steps back and surveying your life and your brotherhood with a little bit of objectivity. If it's not how you thought things would be once you lived in the house, ask yourself how you can make it be what you imagined. Reach out to brothers; I bet that there are at least a few others who have doubts and who aren't entirely sure they made the right decision. There might even be someone in the house/chapter - like a chaplain or "brotherhood" coordinator - who might be a good person to talk to if you have specific issues.

No matter what, give it some thought and time. Perhaps you'll remember what drew you there in the first place and be able to build upon your original feelings and make your experience what you had hoped it would be. Good luck!