| myersm |
08-27-2005 01:15 AM |
As suggested, this moment will not define me, but help to mold me into a better person. I am active in other things on campus, and I do work hard on my grades, so I know that there is other organizations that I can join. The great benefits of sorority life drew me into this process and it has been a great experience for me.
After getting through the day, I am less upset than this morning after just listening the message. I decided to go ahead and show up on campus (because I went ahead and went to work, which is on campus also) to talk to my rho gamma. Instead, I talked to one of the exec member who I happen to know from another organization. My rho gamma spoke to her about my experience and what I shared to her the day before. Well, the exec member sat down with me and was so passionate about explaining that what I went through was a mistake and that my situation is rough. I really loved that she took the time to explain snap bidding and the outcomes from some of the chapters, partically the ones she knows I ranked high at first, and my chances of recieving a bid then.
I'm anxiously waiting for those decisions, but at the same time I am not going to be upset if I do not receive any because I knowt that it depends on what happens tomorow with the girls that do recieve a bid. I do belive, like many, that everything happens for a reason. Maybe it is just not my time or path to be in a sorority, and that is okay. I am still giving it my best, and have an open mind about the entire process. I know that there are many things that go on that PNMs have no clue about and the invitation process is a very difficult one for both chapters and PNMs. I also have a new found resepect for sororities. I never knew the passion and dedication that so many have, and today caught myself defending every single one of them when one of my co-workers, who didn't know I am/was rushing, was saying complete negative and inappropriate sterotypes. I've truely enjoyed the experience and feel that is helping me overcome rejection in a more postive aspect. I was devestated, but I have been able to look past being cut and see the other side of everything.
So, snap bidding, as I understand happens tomorrow. If I receive any bids I will be open-minded about the chapter and reflect the good things about the chapter to make a diecision.. however, I do have one or two that I would prefer, of course. Anyway, if that doesn't work out then I will try COB or spring rush.
I'd like to thank everyone for their sympathy and comments for my experience. I am very grateful that their are women here that have supported everything that I have done and been an open ear to "talk" to.
PS.. sorry this is so long of a post.
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