Sorry Girl!!!:)

I used to think...
 

that life was meant to be fair.
that I needed long, "good" hair and light skin to be pretty (I just cut my hair and love my brown skin.
that love was ALWAYS enough.
that love would never come again.
that I could only affect change my being a doctor (headed to law school).
that no one would ever understand me.
that I was somehow less black for being upper middle class, growing up in a 2 parent home, and conjugating my verbs.
that I needed to apologize for how I grew up.
that I could somehow lose my blackness.
that it was possible to "Talk white" and that I should try not to do it.
that education was to be scoffed at.
that loving me made me conceited.
that something was wrong with being convinced;)
that love meant never having to say I'm sorry.
that love was easy.
that family wasn't important.
that I needed a LOT of friends.
that it was okay to allow fear to motivate my actions.

Re: I used to think...
 

You Truly ARE The Master Of Your Fate!!

I used to think.......
 

*Life was fair
*Friends were forever
*Family wasn't important
*I must depend on someone
*People could handle my honesty
*Curly and/or nappy hair was ugly
*Thugs were attractive
*If I was nice to people they would be nice in return
*People couldn't see my true colors
*Old people (anyone above 30) were stupid.
*That 30 was old
*Math, science, and English were worthless and I wouldn't need it when I grew up.
*Oral sex was nasty too :D

I used to think...
-my best friends would be the ones I could turn to in those times of stress
-men would treat me the way I wanted to
be treated
-college would be easier than I thought
-I would never be patient
-why not think about the future?
-Skipping church sometimes was ok
-life was fair for "me"
-my history was boring

That my grandparents would live forever.

That my grandmother would be around when I get married.

That my grandfather would walk me down the aisle.

That once I graduated from college I would have it made.

That I would be married by now... (still single)

That I was too fat to wear "girl" clothes. (y'all know that they used to not make decent clothes in big sizes)

That all I had to do was get cool with a few members, attend Rush, and the rest would be history.... (I learned the hard way)

That teaching would be easy.

That once I had a car, I would be able to get up and go and not have to bum rides. (I have a car now and nowhere to go. Whne I was bumming, I had a MILLION places to be!)

That I would be rich by now....

That I could write a few things in this topic and not get addicted.

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I used to think:

- that my life would go according to my plans
- that friendships lasted forever
- that I would never gain weight
- that I would be a model & actress
- that I didn't need a formal education (getting my Master's Degree now)
- that nerds weren't cool
- that rock & alternative music sucked
- that getting a job would be a piece of cake
- that I would be married and living in a mansion right now
- that church wasn't for me
- that all mothers loved their children
- that dreams didn't come true

I couldn't have said it better myself AKA2D!

I used to think...

I would meet my husband here in college (with 7 months left, it's not looking so great) Enh well.

Jealousy wouldn't be an issue amongst friends

more to come...

I used to think when I "got grown" I could do whatever I wanted.

ditto on that one. However I have plenty of family members who remind me that I'm not yet "grown"...I wonder when that will happen? Probably not for a long time. My grandmother says my mother (almost 50) is still a "young woman".

I used to think driving on the highway was SCARY...

I did too I just recently started driving on the highway like a year ago!

When I was little I used to think that if you fell from a tall building that you would be okay as long as you landed on your feet:o

I used to think

- that life couldn't get any better than senior year in high school
- that all of my friends would remain the same and we'd always be there for each other
- making the right choice was easy
- everyone respected integrity
- I wouldn't be the 'old-school' wife who cooks, does laundry and fixes lunch for her hubby
- being strong meant that I didn't need a man in my life

that love was easy
that family would never turn their backs on you
that i would never be broke
that credit cards were free money
that everyone is really 'good' deep down inside
that tragedies happened to other people
that my full lips were ugly
that I needed to get my freckles removed somehow
that i would be married or engaged by 25

that I'd never be able to focus on living in the moment (and not always planning for and thinking about the future to the extent that I miss what beauty is now)

SC