OP - I skipped the various responses to save time, so forgive me if this is a repeat.

Do not give up. I can honestly tell you that what you are feeling is very normal. Truthfully, I remember feeling that way 30 years ago and my daughter definitely felt that way when she pledged 5 years ago.

Those bonds take time. Treat this like any other relationship - they take time to develop. The funny jokes, inside stories, etc don't occur over night.

Also, I think your age may be factoring in a bit, too. I imagine most of your pledge class are freshmen so they might not really click with you at this point.

Definitely talk to your big sister or new member chairman. Chances are she may have felt the same way and can give you some advice and support.

The "instant" love is not always there, but it doesn't mean you are in the wrong place. Just keep working to build your friendships and it will get better.

I wish you the best!