Cash sweetheart,

You can live fast by the pants of your seat and have all that life can offer to you on a silver platter... What happens when that gets old??? When all the babes you date, seem lifeless and meaningless even if you still need Levitra and bust a nut and bang the whore... What next??? Will you find love?

You may not die in freak accidents nor be paralyzed physically... What would be worse? Mental paralysis and isolation? HIV is no joke... Condoms may not be 100%, but they sure do give you the wriggle room you need to not be laying up in solely in your bed, alone with foresaken and forgotten on all kinds of retroviral cocktails that make your body hurt where the pain is indetectable...

Life and the spirit of it has a way of coming back on your ass... All the chit you did, will catch up to you eventually. And when it does, who will be there for you? GC? I doubt it... The PIKES??? Maybe... Your babes? Don't think so... Marijuana? Well, it might make you forget once, but the nightmares last forever causing insomnia...

So as person involved in the healthcare system, I see sickness and dying on a daily basis, I really think you ought to "slow your roll" and take life as it comes not jump into it full throttle in a waterless pool...

But, I ain't your mama nor your daddy... And you can take my advice or leave it. But, spiritually speaking... You are heading for a big fat brick wall...

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Cashmoney,

I hope you get this. This is the short version because I spent a long time writing my first reply and lost it (I think). First of all, I would never stalk you. How can you say that when I have not corresponded with you much?
Yours is the 2nd letter I responded to. My heart went out when you were sick. Just remember how miserable you felt. People have different feelings about death when they are on their death bed and no one is peachy about std's.
It's odd how you can say what you want and do what you want and it is free speech and free will. I show concern and I am
in a religious cult or whatever. Actually, religion doesn't prevent you from having fun, it frees you from being weak to things that drag you down.
Your life is special. There will never be another you. Will you touch people's lives with negativity or by being positive?
Yes, I am in the helping profession. Just trying to help. This will be my last letter if you are not interested, but I wish you the best. Every word plants a seed. Sorry that it was misinterpreted. I am not judging you...just wishing you the best.

Ok maybe you don't care about getting STDs or dying of AIDS, and fine, that is your choice to make. But please please PLEASE tell me that you tell these girls the truth, that you don't use condoms with anyone. I don't care how "dirty" you think they are, they are people with feelings and people who actually DO care about them and it's not fair for them to die of AIDS also just b/c you "forgot" to tell them about how you practice sex. I am not trying to be preachy, it just makes me very sad to think about the possibility of you not telling these girls.

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Oh yea, and I meant to say that I am not in a religious cult or whatever.