Right now sairose can't help being over-sensitive any more then you can help that people ARE black and white. IMO you overreacted to her 1. reaching out for help and assurance and 2. her apology for said over-sensitivity.

allie-

it is hard to console your feelings directly when we do not see what exactly is going on. i know that depression sucks and i am sorry that you have to go through it. do not let people tell you that what you are feeling is false. i know that i do not fully understand what bipolar is. i just know that any condition that severely alters your emotions and mental state is rough. i hope that are able to get to the root of this and correct it. i hope either the people around you change their attitude or your perception of yourself and people change. i wish nothing but the best for you cause i think that you deserve to be happy.


to the people of negativity- allie is asking for help not criticism. whether you are right or not isnt the point. cause you cannot prove otherwise. she felt it necessary to seek some help from us. we should respect her and offer words of encouragement. this is not the time nor the place to drag her down.

I don't think she started this thread to blame her condition for the reasons why she doesn't date.

She started this thread because she was feeling depressed because she was off her meds.
Being single was just another factor making her depressed. She wasn't blaming her single status on her condition.

For those who suffer from depression or any other mental illness you know how hard it is do feel that everything is hopeless and start blaming it on everything and everyone even when you don't mean.

I'm sure once she's back on her meds she'll feel 100% better.

You do not know me, and I don't appreciate the way you have come at me, not just here, but in other threads. I didn't say it necessarily WAS the reason, but rather that it made me wonder if it MIGHT be, and so I was depressed. I didn't say I was blaming everyone or everything.

It's called MY MEDICINE HAS NOT COME IN YET AND I'M FEELING THE EFFECTS BADLY. It was supposed to come in a few days ago, and it hasn't, and I'm managing best I can.

For someone who wants to have "sensitivity" classes, you are VERY insensitive to how others feel. HOw dare you say I'm blaming everything in life on my condition? I am not. I posted this thread because my friends aren't home, and I had to vent somehow, and I was hoping GreekChatters would be understanding enough to listen. That is all. Stop trying to pretend you know how I feel, what I think, and how I perceive things. You don't know me. I posted this thread for people to give encouraging words because I needed them. Stop trying to understand what's going through my head if you don't have a clue. If you do not have anything nice to say, do me a favor and do not speak to me. Those on here that also have problems understand how it is when you go without meds for a few days; it is soooo so hard. I just came here for support. I didn't ask for you to shoot me down. So do me a favor, and don't. Don't give me advice when I came here for support.

For your information, I am very confident about my condition. This is why I am so open about it. And under medication, I am fine, and I don't willingly NOT take them. I've taken them nonstop for two years, except for once or twice that my meds were late coming in and there wasn't anything I can do. I lead a normal life, and I'm normally quite happy.

For the rest of you who have replied, thank you so very much! I do feel better now. I took the advice and I went for a run, and wow do I feel better. Sitting at home just makes me think too much, and I don't need that. I do appreciate everyone's thoughts and kind words very much. :) Also, it makes me feel a lot better to know how many others on here go through what I do, or similar. I don't feel so alone then. :)

Thank you, you hit it right on the nail. And yes, if my damn medicine ever comes in *grrr* I will feel 100% better. :) Honestly, on meds I don't ever have any episodes, but when for whatever reason I don't for a few days, it's bad. Anyways, thanks for understanding. :)

No, don't appologize, I appreciate the advice. :) I *did* go for a run this morning, and I do feel quite a bit better. It's better for me to keep busy, so I'm doing what I can. :) Thanks!!

Oh, please believe me though, I am not skipping them on purpose. :(

Normally, the medicine comes in in plenty of time! I don't understand what the hold up is. I can't go to the pharmacy for a prescription because my insurance says maintenance meds have to be mail ordered. *sigh* I am going to my doctor today, to see if he has any samples or anything he can give me to tide me over, so to speak. I'm doing what I can. :)

I never skip my meds on purpose, though. That's just stupid. :)

Sounds like a good idea . . . I hope you start feeling better.

I know it can be tough, hang in there!!! Taking a "break" from meds is extremly hard and throws your body into all sorts of odd states. A big boo to your mail order company for not delivering on time. They should know better!!!

As for daing someone with a mental illness... I dated a boy for two years with general anxiety disorder. He would have panic attacks every so often. Half the time we were together he was on meds, and half the time he wasn't. It was difficult to deal with sometimes becuase I couldn't understand where he was coming from, and while I could be supportive, I couldn't actually help him. Only he could do that. In the end, his anxiety had very little to do with our break up, and I we still talk. Mostly thought, we had a great realtionship! His disorder was there, but it wasn't a huge part of our time together.

sairose -

If you haven't done so, PLEASE contact your insurance carrier, or the HR person at your work or your parents' (depending on who your insurance is under) and let them know that the mail-order company was late with your drugs. If you called in plenty of time, their not getting them to you soon enough is COMPLETELY UNACCEPTABLE. Maintenance drugs are not a matter of if you don't get them you'll have the sniffles a day longer, for some conditions they're a matter of life & death.

I work with this stuff all day and get so pissed off when the drug companies are all "whatever" about people getting things on time.

Jumping in with my $.02
 

I TOO AM COMPLETELY DEPRESSED.

I know EXACTLY what sairose is going through right now. I am also bipolar. I take my medicines everyday, because I know that without them, I am going to feel like sh*t the next few days.

My situation right now is a little bit different than sairose's. I have been taking my medicines, but for the past month and a half, I have still been feeling really down, feeling like I could cry at any second (and a lot of times do), unable to concentrate, even (lately) having suicidal thoughts. I know that this is not supposed to happen while I am taking my meds, so I saw my doctor today, and he increased one of my medicines. HOPEFULLY that will make a difference (I go back and see him in July).

Sairose started this thread to talk her problems out with other GCers (several who are in the same boat as she is), not to be criticized for what she is feeling. So please, if you can't say anything nice, don't say anything at all.

BIG HUGS TO SAIROSE!!!!!!

Nicole

You clearly don't understand the stigma attached to various mental disorders nor understand what it feels like to deal with it. People like you who make ignorant and insensitive comments just make it worse. You gripe about people needing sensitivity classes - does that only apply to issues that concern you?

sairose-

If you miss your meds, YOU MUST CONTACT YOUR PROVIDER IMMEDIATELY!!! I am not even close to joking...

Why did you wait so late to get them in? Moreover, you should have had your "SUPPLY" to last you... That is what the lunatics at your healthcare provider will tell you when you call to ask where your meds are...

You need TELL them to give you a 10 pill "filler" until you your perscription comes in.

I advocate all persons to follow their healthcare practionner's advice. However, to stave off the "junk" that is being leveled in your mind, you need to do something positively reinforcing--such as EXERCISE--someone mentioned that before. Research as shown that aerobic exercise moves the brain chemicals around that get "stuck" in the brain that causes bipolar disorder--namely Seratonin. That research is very strong and current... WALK OUTSIDE FOR A FRESH BREATH OF AIR FOR 10-30 MINUTES!!!

Other things you MUST do while waiting in addition to exercise is get some TRAINED person to talk to objectively that KNOWS your psychological history... Talk to someone by phone. YOU MUST SPEAK to someone before you breakdown. Try to minimize delayment. Anything could be wrong with you getting the meds, lost order, whatever, shit happens!!!

What I AM TELLING YOU: YOUR COMMENTS AND ACTIONS HERE ARE SHOWING YOU ARE BEGINNING YOUR ROLLERCOASTER RIDE DOWNWARDS AND ONLY A TRAINED PERSON CAN TALK YOU OUT OF IT!!!

That is my Professional ADVICE... AND YES!!! I DO KNOW WHAT YOU ARE GOING THROUGH!!!

Dr. AKA_Monet...
PM ME ASAP!!!

I sympathize with you! I understand how going off your meds for even a few days can throw you all out of whack (has happened to me, too, unintentionally...). I really hope you get to feeling better soon and you'll be in my prayers!

Also something to consider
 

Depends on what kind of meds youre on, but being off of them for just a few days shouldnt have that big of an effect. If you on one of the old school tri-cyclics, yeah, you would feel that, but if you are on the newer SSRI's, that would take a couple of weeks before you sreiously began to feel that.

So it could be a timing issue, but your feelings of depression could be coming from somewhere else. Good luck.

It will get better. I was clinically depressed for about 5 years (off and on) and with the proper meds and LOTS of talk therapy, I am in complete remission. I do have to be vigilant and as long as recognize the warning signs, I'll be ok. But for the last 2 years or so I have been the healthiest I have ever been. its an amazign freedom.

Good luck to you.