WhiteDaisy128 |
03-07-2003 01:18 AM |
Sorry it's been so long for an update. I'm sorry to say that my updates usually come when things are not going so well. Since last I posted, mom spent 13 nights at the hospital and no signs of cancer in her brain was found. However, she was still greatly confused and in some pain. We could not take care of her ourselves at home. When she was more stable, we moved her to a nursing-home like facility. She was there for exactly two weeks. Today, she had to be moved back to the hospital. Her blood was becoming very thick and was not circulating (her feet were very dark purple) and she was in a lot of pain. We had her transported to the emergency room. Her body is shutting down. The doctors say it will be 2-4 days. Her liver is almost totally shut down, her circulatory system is shutting down now, and all the other body systems will follow. There is nothing they can do to stop it (and she wants no heroic efforts). They have assured us that from now until the end, she will be in no pain as they are controlling it until nature takes over. Um, I'm not sure what else to say. One amazing thing today was when we were still at the nursing home and just deciding to move her to the hospital, she asked for "dad" - thinking she was asking for my father, whom she often calls dad, I told her he was teaching class but that he was going to get a grad student to come in for him instead and that he'd be there soon. She replied, "no, not that dad, Earl" - Earl is my grandfather, who passed away of a heart attack before I was born. My mother laid there in the bed and had a conversation with my grandfather while my grandmother and I sat there. It was the most erie feeling, I know he was there and she mumbled things about "waiting", "pain", "pain-stopping", and "patience." Somehow, experiencing this put me more at ease. My grandmother's eyes were so wide when my mom was "talking to Earl" - I don't even know what to think. Please keep us in your thoughts and prayers. This is going to be a very hard week for my family and my friends. Somehow everything will be okay...
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